From "I" to "You"

When I started writing this, I don't know what thoughts or ideas will come out of my mind then memories of you just pop out. As I remember when I first saw you, you were just a common person that I usually see and not even noticeable by anyone. We were a total stranger but later on I started saying "hi" and "hello" whenever we crosses our paths. One time I saw you smiling because of my stupid acts and innocent thoughts, at that moment I said to myself (aba marunong ka rin pala tumawa). You were a shy type person and it was my first impression of you. You were kind, simple and a deep minded person. What I liked about you is when you smile and whenever I looked at your eyes I always feel something different happening to me then asking my self (normal ba yun??). Am I falling for someone??, then I started ignoring you. I can't fall for anyone because I know it can only ruined my happy and contented life so I decided that I will only treat my opposite sex as my siblings and friends to avoid hurting and be hurt. I never imagined that someone would ever liked me. I can't even believe when you said to me that you liked me because I'm not even sexy, I'm immature and cannot make own decisions but thank you even if it is true or not. I always think that liking me is impossible and only a fantasy that can never happen in real life. I learn to control my emotions whenever I started liking someone even if it is hard because I know it can only hurt me and someone I like. I wanted to say sorry for the things I've done and said just to pushed you away from me. I'd rather be single than be found out that I have feelings for you. When I even get to know you better I don't know how long I can keep it. I'm afraid to admit that I like you because I'm scared of what will happen in the future, what if you'll also left me like others do or what if your just kidding when you said you liked me. Being your friend is my only way to be with you and accepting that I can't have someone like you. It will take a lot of courage, confidence and patience to express my emotions but mine is not enough. Stop liking you is the best way so I can act normal again and maybe can kill my feelings about you even if it is really hard. I just wanna thank you for the advices and listening to me when I needed someone to talk to. I know you're happy right now but I want you to be happier.